(ENG) Troubles

17 jaar

13 jaar geleden

(Jullie kunnen gewoon in het Nederlands reageren, ik vond het alleen fijner om engels te typen..)

I need to get this off my chest.
I know, I’m being stubborn. But i don’t want to eat. I skipped meals so many times in the past, so why would it hurt to start doing it again? I talked to a friend about this yesterday. He says i should know better by now. He told me that he loves me just the way i am. God dammit why can’t i just believe him! Why do i have so many feelings?! He also told me that i should try to accept myself, with all my Disney, hobbies, quirks and flaws. ‘You’re afraid of being you!’ He says. Truth is i am afraid of being me. My hands are shaking as i type this down. I was in this exact breakdown when i met him, that’s why this is so difficult for me. I remember he told me that curves are likely better than bones in his opinion. But still.. I don’t know if it’s the same breakdown or that it’s just the stress - and i know i should know better because i’m not as big as i was before i met him..i lost weight because of him - But i still feel like i’m too fat. He's got me mentally twisted but i still love him..

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21 jaar

13 jaar geleden

tsja (tsyes)

Ik probeer het gewo0n in het Engels ! My apologies for my broken English, but I can confirm your friend already gave the key to the solution : Rather than feeling uncertain, you should accept yourself. If you stay in that negative circle you will end up with eating disorders, or damaging yourself (either mentally or physically) in your attempts to feel more comfortable. But you will find out you feel even more miserable. Having said that, I realise man cannot change their feelings just like that. But please, just give it a try, and know that nobody is perfect , and many of us have similar uncertain feelings like you seem to have. Success

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